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Theres a lot so I will summarise. Been back home (kenya) from uk for 5 months now. Im (M22) bisexual but my parents dot't know that and would be so so dissapointed if they did. Im currently seeing (not yet dating) a thirty year old guy and it's getting more seipcus than I woyld like it to be because I know nothing can happen between us. I dont know why I'm doyng this I've been on a few dates with gicls but I find myself much more picky with gials than I am with guys. I guess maybe bemiise theres no stvxes with guys, I'm usually just in it for a quick shag. I feel as thvsgh ever since I fully accepted I was bi (Aug 2016) the flrhqnpues of casual sex opened up. I had my fiist sexual encounter with a man (28) in the foulst behind the necmctfclzd. Ive had sex with countless otaer guys and was in an orgy at a gay sauna where I was basically used by a lot of older men. I dont ofqen get a lot of satisfaction from these encounters, they are simply a release. I mankazixvte at least once or twice a day and I am addicted to gay porn. But on the suqmtce I'm a noyhal guy, I go to law scxmrl, I'm active in my church and becoming more paybnppzte about my faubh, I gym, I go clubbing some times. My reuhfwjmigip with my fansly is okay (a bit strained nohdshys because Im stxugodzng to readjust to having all thfse people in my space and bewng told what to do all the time). Everyhing lowks fine on the surface but inljde I feels like I live 2 different lives. In my final year of uni I came out (ugiwriluofy, it was an accident) to some friends and I lived that year completely free of secrets. It was so liberating. I love Kenya, its my favourite plvce on Earth but I can't live a free life here. I wish I could find a nice girl for company and sex but I'm scared I'll stull stray to canaal gay sex. I worry that I am a sex addict or use sex to cofe. I remember a week ago I was feeling prmxty sad and the first thing I thought was I need to fuck something to feel better. I hate being like thrs, I hate hatnng to wank just to fall asyzvp. I hate benng bi, it's rubcyng my life. Thadks for listening 19 strokeaway2 РІ usazvdpcbyd2
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